He took my spirit

I left my husband in October of 2010.  I have a daughter, who at the time was three.  I was so afraid of him.  I waited until he went on a trip, packed up me and my daughter, and left.  I was so afraid..  I was so afraid of him.  I knew if I stayed he was going to kill me.  I just had no idea the extent of damage he did to me mentally, spiritually.  It is now almost four years after I left him, my psychopath finally took my spirit.  He also took custody of my daughter.  He spent over $100000 in lawyers doing so. He did to me what he told me he would do if I left him.  I now, four years later accept, my psychopath won.

The court system is a very unjust place when it comes to abused women.  It is very unjust especially when your abuser has money and will do everything in his power to take you down mentally, physically, emotionally, and financially.  He will crush you and torture you until you shake with fear and then have his high dollar lawyer squash you in front of the world so everyone can see you shake and then call you emotionally unstable, meanwhile, the psychopath has the ability to remain cool and calm.  He is emotionless.  He is stable.

I was beat down mentally for so long from my ex husband while we were married, and I am still being beat down, almost four years later, only now, he uses my daughter for his dirty work.  He even teaches her to beat me down as well.

I fought for so long..  I fought for her with my every breath, with every inch of everything I had.  Now I am tired.  My psychopath finally took the only thing that I had left, he took my spirit....

My abuser won.

no........  I will keep going....  I love my daughter to much to give up.  I just needed to vent.